At first I didn't know how to warm up to this one... I am one man, with no "qualifications" to speak of. How the hell am I supposed to do that??
So I told myself, if I was to settle on this massive question I was indeed going to have to do something in order to get a grip on this place and form it with my own two hands.
But there is only so much stuff you can move around by yourself, isn't there?
Sure, you can transform a little plot of land and build a home - or many on this "borrowed" terrain.
Then what? You haven't really changed much, you've just blocked your view. View on the landscape and reality. You cannot see as far any more, at least in all directions - physically or mentally. Because what is a home? Bricks and mortar and a few people you care about inside. You haven't changed anything, just narrowed your scope to a few people and some stones- essentially. You have changed your perspective, in a manner of speaking.
I don't get distracted much by this kinda stuff, as you already know.
Anyway, I was thinking again... "how might I change the world?" Geographically, I hadn't a hope in hell. I am not superman, so I cannot spin it the opposite way, so I decided to change it politically.
But here's the problem with politics - It doesn't change much at all unless people start getting fucked over. Let's face it, we always do and we all know that we do by those in power, no surprise there. So essentially, unless the majority of voters agree with you, you are not changing anything. Politics itself is a very focused utilitarian system. At the moment it only cares about those rich enough to support it's policies. If you haven't got the readies, it's not gonna do jack shit for you. Ironically, your vote could change something if it were used properly.. but who are you going to vote for? Last time I checked, we have two identical centre-right parties who hold majority (at last electorial count it was FF at 40%, FG at 25%) and two lousy left parties who were Labour at 10% and Sinn Féin at something like 5%. The rest are irrelevant as far as I'm concerned. So politically you are changing nothing unless everyone decides they aren't right wing any more. Fat fucking chance. politics works on two levels: It makes the rich richer and the poor poorer. That is capitalist democracy and socialism 101 for you right there. And suppose you started your own social democracy? The ones on top would still get greedy. Us humans, we like to collect things, for whatever reason. The favourite is money above all and we just cannot stop collecting it! Our prized possession is our cash, so we don't want to give it away! Nooooo sir! Gold is by far, the worst discovery we ever made. Damn 3rd generation sun!
So, I now realised that I wasn't physically capable of moving mountains and was not wealthy or educated enough to build a home and support it financially. I certainly wasn't spoiling my vote on right-wing politics that favours the rich, one of which I am not, or making the 10% a 10.0000000000000001% on the side of Labour. So how was I going to change the world? Was I going to have children?
No. Having kids doesn't change anything.
Suffice to say, I do understand people's reasons why they want them. I understand why and I am not against every human doing it. It's just not for me, personally.
So, I was not going to change the world physically. I was not going to do it politically, nor was I going to get involved myself. I certainly do not want to introduce another life into a world that is constantly hard or at least, until it is made safe. But not everyone has the same opinion as me. Though life is hard, I know just how to treat it. I have found my own personal balance. Anything crazy like the above just upsets the motion. What was I going to do to "change" it though? People seem to be obsessed with this... What is my role?
I realised that I didn't want to change it anyway. I like the world just as it is. Life is good for me now. It ain't easy, but it's okay. I'm not competitive nor am I particularly unrealistically ambitious. Between what I do here (sweet fuck all in the grand scheme, in the personal, more than enough) and what I want to do I think I will be busy for a while. I know that there are less than fortunate people out there, just as there are those who are greedy and un-supportive. I spend my time somewhat in leisure and the other part, trying to help those around me as best as I can. I don't ask for much simply because I don't want it or know I don't need it. Expectations are low, but my mood is high always.
If it ain't broke, don't fix it.
*again, I hate this word.